I haven’t been that vocal recently but I’m going to start sharing more of my story.
Today I’m struggling for a few different reasons. I’m doing the work, but I have this overwhelming feeling that what I’m doing isn’t enough. Recently someone posted on one of the groups I’m a part of on Facebook saying she did a 16 mile long run. At this point, I was like shit, am I doing enough? I have a 50K coming up, I need to do more mileage, do more. But then the inner voice of mine said shit, we’re really far out still, we have 16 weeks as of today. No need in doing that far at this point. Trust the process.
My motivation is currently high but I’m still worried about maybe I’m really not doing enough. I think of Comrades often, but I also know to focus on the task at hand. My goal right now is the 3:30-3:40 marathon. This is the goal. I need this before Comrades to get a seat in corral C.
Yes, having a coach can take that off the plate. But I don’t think I’m going to be using one moving forward. I have high expectations for a coach and I’m not willing to waiver in what I expect. The plan I’m using is a hybrid of many things I’ve learned over the years of triathlon and running plus coaching others.
I cooked some fish for the first time ever. Danielle showed me how easy this was when we were in Canada so I made this happen. It was amazing. The picture below of me running on a trail is in Canada. That trail is my favorite place in the world to run only second to a specific 2.7 mile loop I fell in love with many years ago.
Some of my friends have been going through some shit. I’m feeling their energy and wanting to help them more, but can’t make choices for them or even take the weight of their struggle off of them. It’s hard to see what they’re going through as an outsider because I care about them. I bring this energy into my workouts and I’m positive that then end looks better for them than their current situations. At this point, this is about all I can say about them. Just know that I’m carrying some of their energy through my workouts.
Overall, I’m excited but nervous. I’m about to do somethings in training, I’ve never done. If you follow along and read, I’m grateful for your attention. If you’d like to ask some questions feel free to comment below.
Current weight: 209.6
Current MPW: 32
Total time Training: 5hrs 11min 44sec
Pace for mileage this week: 9:44/mile (6:03/K)
Confidence in completing Comrades: Non-existent.
